When you have one food option in the house and everyone else has a thousand but they still choose to eat your one thing. Going to bed hungry…

I went to a greasy diner with my family for breakfast after church.  I’m much better about not pouting when I know I won’t really able to eat somewhere but today my parents grew a conscience and decided they felt bad that I was sitting there watching them eat so they told the waitress I’d have the “fresh fruit bowl” on the menu.  The “FRESH fruit bowl” arrived at the table and it was a bowl full of CANNED peaches in all their sugary syrupy glory.  I sent it back immediately because (1) I wasn’t about to pay $4.50 for an 88 cent can of fruit (2) I don’t eat canned fruit because why would I when I can have the fresher healthier option and (3) I had no idea if canned fruit was gluten free and I didn’t have my phone on me.  Anyways, I was annoyed with how the waitress reacted to my questions and her subsequent attempt to serve me “fresh fruit.”

Also, I apologize in advance if this blog gets boring as far a gluten free options are concerned but I’ve decided to eat only naturally gluten free in order to eat cleaner.  That means no more gluten free substitutes like bread and cookies because I don’t know if you’ve noticed but the gluten free options are much higher in calories and much smaller in serving size (this is what bothers me so much when it comes to people who are gluten free for weight loss… all I have to say is good luck with that) If anyone has some naturally gluten free recipes for me to try I’d appreciate it!  Love 

of my life right now. I want desperately to run away, travel the world, and live life.  And then I’m reminded that even that would be hard for me because of celiac.  While I’m on the topic, I AM SO SICK OF THE “GLUTEN FREE” TAG BEING CONTAMINATED WITH GLUTEN FREE FAD DIETERS AND VEGAN RECIPES THAT AREN’T GLUTEN FREE AT ALL!!! Why can’t you just stop torturing me? I don’t care if you’re having a hard time on “Day 5” of your gluten free diet! Trying being on year two of celiac! Also, quit getting me all excited about delicious looking stuffed french toast etc. only to have me scroll to the bottom to find out they’re not gluten free! but they’re vegan! so it’s okay right?! GAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!

End Rant (Sorry I’m just really over tired and frustrated and midterms and boys and ya you get the point)

Vegan ≠ Gluten Free

Vegetarian ≠ Gluten Free

Rice is, in most cases, gluten free.

So are potatoes, 

And vegetables,

And fruit.

This is not a fad diet for most people.

It might be an invisible disease but that doesn’t make it any less horrible. 

It’s not a joke.

I will be polite about it to a point and then I have to protect myself.

sometimes I day dream about my wedding day and it all seems so nice and then I move on to the reception… where there will have to be food… and a very expensive gluten free cake… and I get sad/anxious 

howitfeelstobeglutenfree:

If I notice right away:

If I don’t notice, start to eat, and she comes running back to take it away:

What Does Getting Glutened Look Like?

• Boyfriend: so... like what does your stomach do when you accidentally have gluten?
• Me: *Google Image - four months pregnant*
• Me: That is what my stomach looks like

I haven’t been writing as much about celiac/gluten free life as much recently in part because I have been lucky enough to avoid being glutened for some time now.  However, the main reason I haven’t been writing about it as much is because it has become more of a part of my daily life and therefore less of a focus for me.  I also am trying (as part of my new years resolution) to be more positive and I realized that focusing on celiac was making me the opposite of that.  So I decided to look at it a different way, namely, my body is my body and I do what I need to to keep it healthy despite hurtful words and eye rolls from those who “love” me.  This most definitely does not mean that I don’t have daily struggles with my disease though.  

For example, we went out for a “before back to school family dinner” the other night to a restaurant I do not usually have problems with, that is, Maggiano’s (an Italian chain).  They have always been very accommodating, sending chefs out to explain options, cooking processes, and even taking your order themselves, but this time they were very busy, I’m talking a two hour wait for a table, and I could tell immediately that the server was very inexperienced.  So I decided to take the usual Celiac safe route and order a salad I had had previously and knew I was safe with minus the croutons.  The rest of the family ate the warm bread, deep fried appetizers, and soups while I drank water and endured lots of eye rolling from my mother for “having an attitude.”  When the main courses finally came about an hour into the meal my salad had croutons on it despite my being very clear about leaving them off.  By now I was just hungry so I did snap at the waiter and he took it back saying they would make me a new one.  By the time my new salad arrived the rest of the family had finished eating so I inhaled it feeling badly for holding everyone else up and again enduring eye rolling from my mother.  

So does Celiac make you healthier?  Yes in so many ways.  But sometimes it can also make you a very bitter and hungry person.

I still have my days guys, I still have my days.